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Do you ever go somewhere only to feel instantly sorry you did and ready to escape at the first possible opportunity? I sometimes find myself somewhere wishing I was elsewhere. Sometimes I get all the way up to the door of a place and suddenly decide to not go in. Does anyone else understand/experience that?

I have just come back from travelling to attend to some exhausting and draining family matters. Over the weekend December came, and everyone is getting into Christmas events but I am not. I just feel like laying low and staying at home every weekend until I die. I know you have to get out and socialize just to survive in this world, but I am tired. I suppose people are going to have to come to me, or will just have to be alienated for now, because I don't have the energy for those things. To put it into sci fi geek terms I'm operating in survival mode and all auxillary systems will have to be shut down for the time being.

That being said, going through this time has taught me some important things.
1) I can handle more than I think I can.
2) Helping people makes me happy.
3) I know who my friends are and who I can rely on for support.
4) No matter what happens, I have some unshakable values and beliefs that hold me up.
5) Fear is irrelevant.

It seems simplistic written out like that, but I like to keep things easy. If you've ever read this blog before you know, the closest I come to poetry is haikus.

To elaborate on the second point, I'd offer this as advice to anyone who wants to feel good about themselves. It can even restore lost faith in humankind. Find someone to help today.

What kind of Star Trekkie are you? Your Result: Captain You are a captain of a great star ship. You are most known for your innovative tactics, and...erm excursions on the side. Your brilliance in odd sitiuations has made you the youngest captain ever.Sit on that comfy captain's chair... "Engage!"
Red shirt
You are a Vulcan or an android.
Klingon
Omnipotent being
What kind of Star Trekkie are you?